my_haven

2007-08-29T04:32:00.000-07:00

i'm in mood to read and be updated so web-search is great. i browse bulletin, phil. star and inquirer online even pep for entertainment news. and because i so heart candymag before i did checked it out too. i'm blogging this because i took their weekly quiz and its: how hard do you fall? well, based on my answer this is their interpretation: Scaredy-Cat. Past experiences and horror stories from friends leave you too scared to fall in love. Burst out of your cocoon and take the risk! Who knows? Your happy ending may just be waiting to happen.
i find myself agreeing. why? back in college some of my friends shared their stories about their bf , how intimate they were [as in detailed where below 18 are not allowed to hear] how bad it ended and how they really suffered from it. after all my friend had given to the guy;he doesn't give her some respect that is due for her even for the sake of not being branded as a kiss and tell guy. and swear even i thought that what he felt for my friend was real. from then i realized you'll never really know how true the guy with his intention. alright giving some benefit of doubt because i also know that there is also nice guy a true gentleman but sometimes can't help become a jerk because he saw someone else he loves more than his present relationship that he once thought she could be the one for her the rest of his life, how about that? still negative huh...we'll see i definitely want to have a family of my own and it start with having a relationship. the sad part i am not getting any younger...tsk..tsk..tsk.

2007-08-28T01:13:00.000-07:00

i added new links of somebody work in call center. i check on their blogs and its really cool since i like to know more about call center and somehow be familiarize because i got a plan of working there in the future, hopefully. hate saying "got a plan." Most often than not my plans didn't get materialize so i stop planning. But everything start with a plan.

2007-08-20T04:11:00.000-07:00

improving communication 4

*Focus*

I admit that's hard for me to have a hundred % focus when listening to someone. My mind goes to somewhere else when I got bored especially when it's too detailed and I already heard what I wanted to hear. Most often when I’m in that situation I pretend listening but I learn later that I was not a good actress in a pretending role. One time the person I'm talking to unfortunately noticed that and it became an issue to raise against me when we had a fight.

One of the worst embarrassments one can get into is when you misunderstood a person because you did not listen to him well and because of that you tell a totally different story. It became a little controversial because of some speculation you make to it believable enough [what a sewer mind!] eew but that happens to me, before. Haaay, needless to say I got few little troubles about that. Good thing it did not became a warlike thing since I have known as quite, kind and good person, ehe. They just let it passed. Whew!

2007-08-20T04:04:00.000-07:00

Blog hopping again, I stumbled upon the blog of someone named ELAY. So what’s big deal about it? Why I’m making fuss over it. Maybe I thought that name is unique and only my sis is using it as n-name. So I checked out on it [who knows she might have been my sis] and she is up graduate. Definitely not my sis. But still curious about her so I read some of her entry and at some moment I became confused again. She made an entry about her sis blog who greet her happy b-day and a message.

Let me quote it:

"…we are the two sides of the same coin, she's in the north pole, i enjoy being in the south. we're oil and water, in simple words: we can't be together."

Well believe it or not the highlighted words were the same message I gave my sis in her friendster.

The other elay who owns the blog celebrate her b-day on May 29 while my sis elay celebrate it every 22^nd of the same month. Her sis is older than her [she called her ate] and I’m older than my sis [her "ate"].

Maybe the name elay isn’t unique…

Maybe it’s just coincidence that the older sis of elays' has the same thought and using the same words…

That there’s 2 elay celebrating their b-day on the same month and one of them is just a week ahead. [odd pero kakatuwa]

2007-08-19T05:13:00.000-07:00

Improving communication 3

To improve communication skills one has to have high self esteem.

“…one has to feel good about him and the role he performed in life.”

When you feel good about yourself you exude a positive feeling for others. Thus, people around you will be more responsive to what you say. So this is what to do. Make a point of appreciating yourself for you are and not just what you can do. How? Be willing to accept praise from people around you and be kinder to yourself when things do not workout.

Haaay… sometimes you know what to do and how to get things done but when you start doing it you suddenly forgot everything because your nerves get into you and from just mist in your brain it became a fog. Then you feel crap and all the single optimism you’ve got for yourself is vanished.

2007-08-16T00:17:00.000-07:00

Improving communication-2

Cont. article says," To communicate more impact you must be congruent. Make a point of always doing what you say you will and find ways of aligning what you want in life." It is easy to have goals, plans or even dreams but you know as people, I tend to be lazy and with a lot of interruptions like doing unimportant things and not in connection with the plans. I lack follow through and sometimes I’m not noticing it. After all I can always catch up some other day. By putting it off until another day and neglecting to use what I have learned my plans didn’t push through, goals is hard to achieve and my dreams becomes vague.

And as for me communicating to others is hard to do since I need to share something good about life and my own life and I couldn’t share any not because I don’t like but because I’m not in good position to talk about it. Don’t get me wrong, I appreciate the life that God has gave me and how he makes it good with the help of my family. To make it clearer I’m very much dependent to them financially and emotionally.

My world revolves around them for the past years and will still be the same but I want to expand more so I can share something too.

2007-08-09T21:14:00.000-07:00

one of the nice things about blog hopping you stumble upon fantastic ideas, great things, wonderful stories, and good writings like this one.

Things learned from inter gender friendships
By Mariel G. Calalo
YOU contributor

THE PREMISE of this article lies on the principle that sometimes, loving a person doesn't mean it has to be romantic and loving a person for the rest of your life doesn't mean you have to end up marrying them. Can a man and a woman just be friends? I'd say yes and they should be.

Hindi dahil kinaibigan ka, liligawan ka na. Not every guy who befriends you has an ulterior motive. Get over yourself. Don't flatter yourself. There is a reason why he befriended you, but don't automatically assume that it's because he wants to be your so-called boyfriend. If this will be the principle you'll follow every time someone asks you to be his friend, you're gonna miss a great deal from the friendship.

Hindi dahil mabait sa iyo, nililigawan ka na. There are people who are naturally sweet and kind. There are people who are innately good and no matter how wicked you seem, they just find it so easy to be kind to you. It doesn't mean he is courting you. Don't put yourself through unnecessary stress trying to figure out if he's courting you or not. Because I think if he is, you won't have to guess, you'll know and you'll be very certain about it.

Hindi dahil he talks to you a lot, he loves you na. You don't befriend a person if you absolutely abhor him, right? Chances are you make sense when he talks to you, or you're probably very patient listening to him. The two of you probably connect on some level but why does it always have to be assumed to be romantic? Being two intelligent, mature human beings, you need to accept that it's nice to share a cup of coffee over a stimulating conversation, and that you don't have to automatically put romantic connotation to it. Relieve yourself of the pressure. It's just coffee and a shared interest.

Hindi dahil cute ang friend mo, crush/love mo na siya. This is the most amusing thing that hit me lately. People always assume that because your friend is cute or should I say, hot (because cute is a word you describe your high school crush while hot is a word you use to describe a hunk), "lakas amats mo na for repapips!" Let me just say this, at least from my own personal experience, I'm just nearsighted, I haven't gone blind. I can still appreciate God's creation! However, there will always be weird things, crazy things, stupid things that will keep you, believe me, from having a crush on him. First of all, you'd know his history with women, enough to judge what's good for you. Second, don't you just hate it when a guy who's absolutely always put together, who looks intelligent enough pronounces the word country as "kawntri" and the word mango as "meynggo." Call me crazy for judging a person just because he can't pronounce these words right. I admit, I'm crazy.

Hindi dahil you hang out with each other most of the time, you'd end up being boyfriend-girlfriend. Self-explanatory... There are a thousand, no million different reasons why things don't always turn out that way. There is no one proven formula.

A dinner with a guy friend does not necessarily mean equate to a date. Especially if you're paying for your share no! Hello? Three things to consider: the place, the topic and how the two of you actually planned to meet. First, how it was planned. If it were a date expect that he would ask you out at least three days before the actual date to give you some lead time, to give you the notion that you are not just a filler on his schedule. Second, the place. If it were a real date, the both of you would want real food and a place where you could really talk things through. Don't go out with a guy to a movie on Friday night if you're really serious about him. Going to a movie is more like treating him like a "filler" just because you had nothing to do on a Friday night so you might as well go out. Topic. Ha! You wouldn't be talking about chikang artista, chikang opisina or argue if the one girl's boobs are real or not. You would be probably talking about sensible, quite personal stuff.

I conclude that platonic relationships are never complicated; people just have tendencies to complicate them.

what you think? thanks to angela for sharing this. sorry for copying without permission.

2007-08-09T20:34:00.000-07:00

i put a visitor counter here in my blog but it started @ 0 and i don't know how to change it to show my real vitals. other counter can do that you just have to indicate at what no. you'll start to count and this one doesn't have. anyway i just make an entry about this to remind me the date i started having a counter. so by simple arithmetic i'll know the exact figure who spotted or visited this blog.

2007-08-06T03:33:00.000-07:00

improving communication 1

Sometimes I feel awful with the status I have right now. I lack self confidence that result to a feeling of self consciousness. I hate it. If I will compare myself to any other people I know, I see that I’m pretty good than them but come to think of it I could say that they have better living. I accept that fact but it's not about accepting, I have to do something. But it’s hard. Lately I’ve been devoting my time reading about improving my communication skills and how it will help me.

Its good thing that we got hook up so I’m able to have unlimited access to i-net, I have found articles that are worth reading and I’d like to share it here with my thoughts about it.

One says [I forgot what site I found this] “Every successful man and woman deals effectively with the constant pressure and demands of modern life. You need to learn the same.”

Before, I hate to be on pressure. I totally think its negative but I’ve realize there’s good on it. I guess its me whose negative about it because I don’t know how to handle it. This is my thought about it. “There are 2 kinds of pressure: good & bad. Good pressure serves as an adrenaline that will make you do things and push you to go beyond your limit. On the other side, if you let the pressure put you down; it will make you invalid to your possible potentials.” It sucks! Wondering why I know because I am there and trying to get up and its hard.

I thought I was already mature enough but I was wrong. The fact that I’m too sensitive and it is hard for me to take negative comments proves that I’m not. The reason why I hate to be rejected which leads to not even try anything and play safe. Now you know why it is hard for me to go out into my comfort zone thus trying to be good on things that underrate my potential capabilities. Tough huh!

For those who is in the same field as I do there’s an advice from the same article which I promise to do. “Make a point of managing your attitude & emotions.” How? I Still figuring out.

There are still more important points to remember to improve our communication skills and promise to write it here with my thoughts about it.

2007-07-29T19:21:00.000-07:00

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	Low
Schizoid:	Low
Schizotypal:	Low
Antisocial:	Low
Borderline:	Low
Histrionic:	Low
Narcissistic:	Low
Avoidant:	Very High
Dependent:	High
Obsessive-Compulsive:	High
-- Personality Disorder Test -- -- Personality Disorder Information --

from blog hopping someone make an entry about this and where to find the site, so i tried.

2007-07-25T19:58:00.000-07:00

"Never lose an opportunity of seeing anything beautiful, for beauty is God's handwriting"

-Ralph Waldo Emerson
the photos were taken in my nanay's garden...
she is known as having a green thumb and this is proof.

2007-07-08T04:24:00.001-07:00

i put wrong entry here, a video clip of grey's anatomy. it's supposed to be in another blog. i decided to delete it but i don't want an empty space just like what happen to my entry after this, i deleted it. now its blank and looks like there's a missing entry there. its a pics uploaded to a widget giving it a new look. so now, i edited this by deleting the html of the videos.

2007-07-08T01:26:00.000-07:00

"The elderly usually don't have regrets for what they did, but rather for things they did not do."

my big sis brings some fortune cookies (taste like pancakes) when you crack it there's fortune (freebies from chowking) or priceless quotation. just like what you have read. some thoughts to ponder and it's indeed precious.

2007-07-03T03:52:00.000-07:00

i have created another blog for my favorite videos like now i'm currently addicted to grey's anatomy. someone uploaded the videos in full clips of every episode of season 3 in youtube. so thanks to mcdreamyslady for all the clips. i love it.

I Am A Tree (Full Episode Clip 3)

2007-07-02T05:25:00.001-07:00

Losing my religion episode of grey's anatomy

2007-06-24T21:22:00.001-07:00

ALEX: "I went to college on a restless scholarship I play baseball some basketball but you know we go football-"
RICHARD: "What the hell is football have to do with who cut the LVAT bad wires? "
ALEX: [to Richard] "Let's say you were drafted to a team that wasn’t your first pick. You know, you don't like the players. You hate the way they play the game. You even think the quarterback is full of crap. The quarterback's a pain in the ass you don't owe a damn thing to. But, it's your team. You don't quit. You don't talk to the press. You don't bitch to the coach. You just... you go out there on Sunday and you make the blocks and you take the hits and you play to win. You show up and you suit up and you play, because it's your freaking team."
RICHARD: "I know your type. You're a surgical junkie."
CRISTINA: "Sir?"
RICHARD: "I'm just saying, it's not going to be easy for you to be away from the O.R. that long."
CRISTINA: "No sir."
RICHARD: "And if you want to get back to the O.R., you're gonna tell me what I need to know."
CRISTINA: [pauses] "You're right, it's not easy for me to be away from the O.R. And it's not easy for me to sit in front of you, or any other authority figure for that matter, and not be able to give you the exact answer that you want to hear. I'm the one with the answers. I've always been the one with the answers. But right now, sir, I don't have any."
CRISTINA: "How do you keep your edge, sir? Because I've watched you and you've been doing this a long time and you're clean, you're focused, you are the job. Nothing gets to you. And the thing is sir, I was like that, until I got here. Until I actually started doing this job and now everything is... is fuzzy and-"
RICHARD: "That’s beside the point."
CRISTINA: "No, you see sir, this is the point. Because I can't tell you. I can't tell you what happened in that room. And before, I could have. No guilt, no loyalties, no problem. Before, before I wouldn't have even been in that room. I wouldn't have gotten involved. I would have never frozen in surgery. I would have told him what I thought he should do. I had an edge sir. I had an edge and I've lost it, and I need it. I need it back. So, if you could just tell me, how you keep yours and how not to be affected, I know I could be a great surgeon. So if you could just give me the answers, I would really appreciate it."
RICHARD: "You're excused, Dr. Yang."
CRISTINA: "But-"
RICHARD: "You're excused. "
CRISTINA: "I'll tell you, I'll tell you who cut the LVAT wires if you'll please-"
RICHARD: "No you won't, I don't wanna know. Not from you. Yeah, I have the answers, but I can't tell them to you. I'm not going to be responsible for you becoming less human."
IZZIE: "I'm a pretty girl."
RICHARD: "What?"
IZZIE: "I'm not being arrogant, it's just, it's just kind of a fact. For a long time I made a career from my looks, so I get it, I'm a pretty girl. And not in a 'from a certain angle' way, in an obvious way. It’s the blonde thing and the big boobs thing. Big boobs are a key to 'obvious pretty' if you know what I'm saying."
RICHARD: "Dr. Stevens-"
IZZIE: "It's how men see me. I'm not a smart girl or an interesting girl, I'm a pretty girl. The blonde and the boobs, it confuses guys into thinking I'm someone else. And I'm used to it. And I'm used to them walking away when they realize… But then Denny goes and asks me to marry him."
RICHARD: "Is that why you cut the wires?"
IZZIE: "He doesn't make me feel like I'm a pretty girl. He makes me feel like… like me. I think he might know me. And so, if I did cut the LVAT wire, and I'm not saying that I did, but if I did, then no. I don't feel guilty. I know that I should. I would if it were anybody else's. But I can't feel anything but happy."
GEORGE: [to Richard] "Aren't you gonna say anything or ... I'm not gonna break... I'm starting to get a little freaked out, but I'm not gonna break. It's not because I don't care, because I do care what you think about me, I do. Care. I just can't tell you want you wanna hear. Which seems to be a theme in my life right now. Just because you can't say something doesn't mean you don't want to. You can want to very much. You can be with a person and be happy with them and not love them. And you can love somebody and not want to be with them. You don't need to love someone to want them. Now that's frustrating, when what your brain tells you you want and what you actually want don't match up. It's exhausting. And, well, its complicated. But that's life. And life... sucks."
RICHARD: "I've known you for a long time. I know your mother and father. And I know, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that you did not cut those LVAT wires. Meredith, I need you to tell me who did it."
MEREDITH: "I've been going over this and over this in my mind trying to piece this together. It was you. You're the reason my parents broke up. And it wasn't just an affair, she really loved you. It wasn't just this cheap thing where she didn’t tell you she was married. It wasn't all a lie. She left her husband for you. But you stayed with your wife, because it was the right thing to do. Maybe safe, but she was the right person for you to be with. Let's face it, my mother? Nothing wrong with being safe, being with the good guy because he's good and we are talking about forever here. You've never regretted your decision. You've never looked back... right?"

best episode of grey's anatomy season 2

Grey's Anatomy

2007-06-23T06:47:00.001-07:00

DENNY: (talking to Izzie) for 5 years I had to live with the choices of my doctors. The guys will cut me open decided my life that there is one choice that isn't mine. and now I have this heart that beats and works. I get to be like anybody else, I get to make my own life to have my own life to do whatever the damn hell I choose. Now here's the good part and you listen close. What I choose ... you. You were the one I wanna wake up with and go to bed with and you everything in between with. I get a choice now, I get to choose, I chose you Ms.Stevens
okay...
It's your turn again...

one of the most romantic scene in grey's and love it...

catch me i'm falling (for you)

2007-06-22T08:24:00.001-07:00

toni gonzaga makes the newest koreanovela more romantic through her music...

lyrics:
I don’t know why
But when I look in your eyes
I felt something that seems so right
You’ve got yours I’ve got mine
I think I’m losing my mind
Cause I shouldn’t feel this way

Catch me...I’m falling for you
And I don’t know what to do

Chorus:
I : How can something so wrong
Feel so right all along
Catch me…I’m falling for you
II : How can time be so wrong?
For love to come along
Catch me…I’m falling for you

How can love let it go?
When it has no place to go
and I can’t go along…pretending
That love isn’t here to stay
Catch me I’m falling for you

If I could just walk away
Without you from day to day
I would die just thinking of you
I think that we’ll never be
More than friends, you and me
But why do I feel this way

Catch me…I’m falling for you
And I don’t know what to do

Chorus:

How can something so wrong
Feel so right all along
Catch me…I’m falling for you
How can time be so wrong?
For love to come along
Catch me…I’m falling for you

Maybe someday I’ll see
Why love did this to me
Cause I can’t go along…pretending
That love isn’t here to stay
Catch me I’m falling for you
Catch me…I’m falling for you

And if wrong for me to feel this way
Cause I don’t know what to do without you
I’M FALLING FOR YOU
Catch me…I’m falling for you

(Repeat Chorus I)

2007-06-22T07:43:00.000-07:00

Last night, as I constantly changing the tv channel I tuned in to 700 club @ channel 11. The host of the show is praying and I’m just so amazed with their prayers because I felt that it was meant for me. I’m so paranoid about my health. I felt something wrong with my urinary tract and it goes something like “…help us lord heal the people with urinary tract infection and those who have ache in right ear. Heal them lord…”

With the urinary tract I thought it was for someone else but someone who also has ache in the right ear which I had that my sister says it looks like a pimple. I just felt Lord God always hear me and I’m so grateful on how He makes me feel and make me aware that I’m heard.

…THANK YOU SO MUCH LORD GOD OUR FATHER, AND TO YOUR SON OUR LORD JESUS CHRIST FOR HELPING US AND MAKING US ALWAYS SAFE AND AWAY FROM SICKNESS. ALSO, THANKS YOU OUR MOTHER OF PERPETUAL HELP MAY WE BE ALWAYS IN YOUR PRAYERS AND GOES THE SAME TO ALL THE SAINTS FOR THEIR PRAYERS. AND TO ALL OUR GUARDIAN ANGELS PROTECTING US…THANK YOU SO MUCH…

magbalik by callalily

2007-06-22T07:25:00.001-07:00

wala nang dating pagtingin
sawa na ba sa king lambing
wala ka namang dahilan
bakit bigla na lang nang-iwan?

di na alam ang gagawin
upang ika'y magbalik sa kin
ginawa ko naman ang lahat
bakit bigla na lang naghanap

hindi magbabago
pagmamahal sa iyo
sana'y pakinggan mo
ang awit ng pusong ito

tulad ng mundong hindi tumitigil
sa pag-ikot
pag-ibig di mapapagod
tulad ng ilog na hindi tumitigil
sa pag-agos
pag-ibig di matatapos
[Magbalik lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]

alaala'y bumabalik
mga panahong nasasabik
sukdulang mukha mo ay laging nasa panaginip
bakit biglang pinagpalit
pagsasamahan tila nawaglit
ang dating walang hanggan
nagkaroon ng katapusan

hindi magbabago
pagmamahal sa iyo
sana'y pakinggan mo
ang awit ng pusong ito

tulad ng mundong hindi tumitigil
sa pag-ikot
pag-ibig di mapapagod
tulad ng ilog na hindi tumitigil
sa pag-agos
pag-ibig di matatapos

2007-06-22T06:39:00.000-07:00

pbb update:

the friendship among the hm's were tested through a face to face nomination and it brings chaos among hm relationship to the one they voted for especially the girls hm.
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Reaction:

I think wendy is not sport. her feelings or anger rather overpower her mind that she can’t accept an objective criticism from other hm and she easily think or feel rather that she was betrayed and didn’t love at all by the girl hm.

I couldn’t agree the way she act and how she reason out lately. Like for example she hate bea for her being plastic but she didn’t realize that she did the same for gee-an. In the 1^st face to face nomination where gee-an voted her which they had already talk about it after nomination and in the girls night-out so all along gee-an thought they were okay but she feels differently and talk about it with bruce and to big brother, that she felt betrayed and she’s questioning the other girls motive and friendship.

Now, I’m wondering how will she react if she would know that her best friend inside the house, saicy, voted for bea instead of her as the big winner. hwat?!

step up

2007-06-19T06:56:00.001-07:00

the music which the lead actor (tyler) and actress (nora) use in the climax of the movie step up showing the dance i describe in my prior entry.

2007-06-18T04:28:00.000-07:00

a day before yesterday wasn't a good day for me. i don't wanna write this as much as possible because i think family issues should remain at home and posting this to internet isn't a good idea since there's a big possibility that someone would be able to read this . whatever issue i had with the family will always pass as if nothing had happen, it's just that things aren't always smooth as you wanted to be. i don't know what's in me that everything is a big deal.
at morning: my mother and i had a squabble. it's the way she give orders... actually i'm doing what she was saying and told her about it and that's it she get angry until yesterday. then in the evening my sis, the youngest, while i'm so comfortably watching tv she change the channel and says that its the only time she'll gonna watch so i had to give way. i couldn't take it because i feel that from the moment she had her school vacation that's always been what she's telling me. i never fail to watch greys anatomy season 2 and so disappointing that i wasn't able to watch the part 2 of the last episode and the whole season 3 except last thursday because she was out.
how about yesterday? my mother still upset with me which i find half good but hurting, good because she didn't ask me to do this or that... hurting... she totally don't wanna talk to me. then my father he told me to give food to our dogs while i'm in the middle of doing something and can't leave it behind just like that to do that.and he just got angry at me. good thing about him after a while he's cool again like he never get angry. hay... just felt negative lately...

2007-06-12T02:11:00.000-07:00

finally i have already watch a film, step up. hhmmm.... if i will rate it's a so-so, not so good not so bad either. anyway , here' s the plot:

Tyler,one of the main character, accidentally breaks a window of a building which Skinny, bro of his bestfriend mac sneaks into, forcing mac and Tyler to follow him. They discover that they are in the Maryland School of Arts, which they believe only rich kids attend. They move onto the performing arts stage and vandalize the props on stage. A security guard arrives after hearing the noise and grabs Mac. Tyler frees Mac from the guard but he is captured himself.

At court, Tyler is sentenced to $200 of community service.

He meets the principal of the school, Director Gordon , who assigns him as a janitor as part of his community service. As Tyler carries out his janitorial tasks, he watches a dance class and sees Nora , a student dancer and tyler's love interests.

At one point Nora sees Tyler dancing outside through a window when Tyler was visited by Mac & Skinny and Tyler saw her looking at him.

Nora is practicing for a dance showcase that will be attended by dance scouts but unfortunately her partner Andrew ends up spraining his ankle which became a good opportunity for Tyler who obviously show interest to Nora since they first met. So after the auditions ended and Nora is resting, Tyler approaches her and offers to replace Andrew. She is reluctant at first but decides to give him a chance, challenging him to catch her, which he does. Nora asks Director Gordon if Tyler could be her replacement for a few weeks until Andrew recovers. Director Gordon is a little hesitant but allows it.

Days go by as Tyler and Nora learn the routine together. Lucy, friend of Nora, is surprised that Tyler is Nora's new dancing partner and jokes about Nora liking Tyler even though she has a boyfriend, Brett. Nora jokes about Lucy liking Miles who mixes beats for Nora even though Lucy has an older boyfriend.

One day Tyler misses practice by an hour after messing round with Mac and Skinny, and finds Nora listening to Brett and Miles' recording session. She is angry at him for being late.

The next day shows Nora waiting for Tyler again. When she finally gives up and leaves, she finds him back in his janitor uniform sweeping outside. She asks him where he's been and he says that he doesn't think this whole dancing thing is for him and that she was doing fine on her own. Nora becomes worried now because she has no dance partner for her show-piece.

And then the turning point, Mac, Skinny, and Tyler are playing video games and Mac mentions how Tyler always gives up on everything he does. Tyler takes that into consideration and ends up going back to Nora and apologizing. He says that he'll do anything to dance with her again and the following scene shows him practicing ballet with children. They both get closer as they dance together everyday. Because of this, Tyler spends less time with Mac and Skinny which irritates Mac.

One day, Nora breaks up with Brett after finding out that he got a recording deal only after he ditched Miles, saying how Brett just uses people and throws them away once he gets what he wants. Also Tyler goes and asks Director Gordon if it's possible if he could finish out the rest of his school year at the Maryland School of Arts. She says he has to earn it and show her that he really wants to be there.

And the part that I like At a party, Lucy's boyfriend is singing with his band. Tyler and Nora dance when Miles and Lucy sing on stage. While Miles and Lucy are getting closer to each other, Lucy has an older boyfriend who they see later kissing another girl; Lucy abruptly leaves the party. Tyler and Nora have their first kiss outside on the pier.

In one of their practices Mac comes in and finds Tyler dancing. He gets upset over Tyler ditching him and Skinny hanging for dancing sessions and for a girl. Tyler walks back into the school to find out that Andrew has recovered and is ready to dance again. Nora doesn't know what to do because Andrew is also a senior and this dance recital means a lot for him too. Tyler is angry and says that she is just like Brett, uses people and then ditches them and so he leaves.

There are scenes of them moping around; Nora phoned Tyler's house phone, but he pretends that he is not at home. Andrew, being a more artistic dancer, is uncomfortable with Nora and Tyler's routine, which includes some hip-hop dancing. Eventually he hurts himself again and says that he can't dance with Nora which leaves her without a partner again.

Tyler reunites with Mac and Skinny. Tyler and Mac went to a house party and left Skinny at home because his mother had forbidden him from going out. Skinny does show up because he didn't want to be stuck at home. After Mac tells him to leave, Skinny walks back home but sees PJ, one i could consider the villain, who has an Escalade. When the guy goes into a store to pick up, Skinny steals his Escalade. He drives back to the party where Tyler and Mac, who both know who the car belongs to, and they yell at him to get out of the car. After Skinny gets out of the car, PJ drives by in another car and shoots Skinny dead. After the funeral Mac and Tyler talk about how they want their life to be better than what they have now. This encourages Tyler to run back to Nora just in time for the recital.

Tyler comes back to find Nora, Lucy, and Miles preparing for the recital, and begs Nora to let him dance again. Nora lets him dance and they perform a successful show-piece. Afterwards, Nora and Tyler make up, Mac congratulates Tyler, Lucy and Miles kiss, the dance scout wants to talk to Nora about being in their dance program, and Director Gordon wants Tyler to finish out the rest of his school year at the Maryland School of Arts. It ends with Tyler and Nora kissing back stage.

The good thing in the movie is:

they show a really great dance moves match with cool music, on which both is a fusion of classic and modern, ballet and the modern dance is what they call harlem while the music is played by using an organ with a beat mix up with an orchestra to give a classic sound.

say it right by nelly furtado

2007-06-11T06:37:00.001-07:00

Say It Right lyrics

In the day
In the night
Say it right
Say it all
You either got it
Or you don't
You either stand or you fall
When your will is broken
When it slips from your hand
When there's no time for joking
There's a hole in the plan

Oh you don't mean nothing at all to me
No you don't mean nothing at all to me
But you got what it takes to set me free
Oh you could mean everything to me

I can't say that I'm not lost and at fault
I can't say that I don't love the light and the dark
I can't say that I don't know that I am alive
And all of what I feel I could show
You tonight you tonight

Oh you don't mean nothing at all to me
No you don't mean nothing at all to me
But you got what it takes to set me free
Oh you could mean everything to me

From my hands I could give you
Something that I made
From my mouth I could sing you another brick that I laid
From my body I could show you a place God knows
You should know the space is holy
Do you really want to go?

2007-06-11T04:17:00.000-07:00

i've been dying to watch the dvd i bought last thursday but can't watch it until today because my sis is not around or our videoke is on rent.it's actually great watching films in our videoke since it has 4 big speaker and the player is a dvd. can't watch it w/o my sis because i'm not comfortable watching alone.

pbb update:
beatriz will stay in the house and she's not nominated this week...
it's robert and bruce who will be in danger to be out in the house...
they only have 3 weeks and i guess next will never have nomination instead people will vote for the season 2 big 4 hmmm....
my big 4 will be gee-an, bea, mickey and i'm still contemplating between nel and bodie.

deal or no deal is back again and its ms ruffa and her mom were the guest it is'nt finish yet so still don't know how much they'll going to get.

in lurking to different blogs most of them recommend to visit travel blog in phil. so finally i was able to read some entry and i'm so amaze with the places and what people can offer in the area that i'm sure expect me to always lurk in it. click at my post link pinoy travel blog.

upside down by 6 cycle

2007-06-09T06:16:00.001-07:00

I’ve been spending some time, thinking i’d be alright
Don’t know if I could really make it tonight
Lie awake in the dark, come down then I start
Thinking about you is almost breaking my heart

I don’t know where I went wrong, or what’s going on
Baby, I fell like our love’s lost tonight
Should I stay, should I go? Well, I really don’t know
Lately I’ve been missing you so

[refrain]
Baby, you don’t understand our love lies lost
But you’re still holding my hand
Oh and then you walk away
Just tonight, I want you to stay

[chorus]
You’re turning me on, you turn me around
You turn my whole world upside down

Everytime I hurt you, well it’s hurting me too
Don’t know if I could really stay here tonight
Tired of thinking of you, I never think that you do
Tell me what am I supposed to do

Well, I just wanted to say that I need you today
Tell me it’s all gonna work out alright
I don’t know where I should I start
But with all of my heart
Baby let me be your lover tonight

[repeat refrain and chorus]

Oh you know, you turn me upside down
You know, you turn me upside down

[repeat chorus]

2007-06-09T04:45:00.000-07:00

i'm so hooked up with pinoy big bro and one of my fave housemate is nominated...i like to vote for her thru internet but voting is close,so sad. i'm hoping that she'll stay.i like her because i can see that she's one among few hm who they called "nagpapakatotoo sa bahay". it's not wendy as she claims herself. i don't think being so blunt about her hm especially when she's in confession room but can't actually tell to the involved party what she's thinking rather she tells it to other hm's which i think backbiting is more appropriate term.
i hope tomorrow on their nomination night hm will vote for robert and be evicted on the next eviction night. i like him at first but lately he does things that is so off .
anyway the good thing in pbb right now is i'm excited to a budding love team in the house mickey and gee-ann.i like them both ever since...

2007-06-04T20:11:00.000-07:00

"words of today"

Check my e-mails and most of the message came from urban dictionary ( it is a website contain vocabulary words of today and cannot be found in Webster dictionary) which I already unsubscribe myself but I still receive e-mails from them so I just send it to trash all the time. But yesterday was different I am in the mood to read each entry before deleting the message and I just found some interesting vocabulary words that I’ve already heard somewhere and while the other I think is interesting to use in daily conversation or in writing to my blog. Here are some of those:

***** Bobfoc *****

Body Off Baywatch, Face Off Crime watch. A person who possesses a killer body but has a face that only a mother could love.

Check out that bobfoc!

***** youniverse *****

The entirety of creation that relates to one specific, narcissistic individual. Used to indicate that a particular person has knowledge only of him or herself -- their universe consists only of them.

If you moved outside of your youniverse for five seconds you'd understand that people aren't homeless out of choice.

***** WWILF *****

What Was I Looking For? Acronym for phrase describing wasting time sufing online, with no results.

Yikes, I've been surfing online for 7 hours and everybody's mad at me, plus I haven't found anything useful or important. WWILF?

***** Nonpology *****

An insincere apology or expression of regret, often blaming the aggrieved party for being offended or bringing up an irrelevant topic to distract.

"I really get tired of politicians' nonpologies. All they're really saying is they're sorry they got caught."

***** frenemy *****

An enemy disguised as a friend.

"What do you think about frenemies?"
"I say, keep your friends close, and your frenemies closer"

***** dap and dip *****

Making a brief appearance at a party or social function for political purposes.

Involves giving "[dap]" (fist-pound greeting) to the host and other notables, then "[dip]ping" (leaving) shortly thereafter. Sometimes used to describe an event that is not enjoyable and would not be worth attending was it not for the political motive.

Matt: Are we going to Jon's party?

Darryl: Yeah, but I don't want to stay long, so let's make it a dap and dip.

***** couching distance *****

The distance one can reach without leaving the couch or sofa.

That job is too far; it's not within couching distance.

“I can't reach the remote control because it's not in couching distance.”

***** 5 second rule*****

An unwritten law dictating that if a food or other consumable item is dropped onto the floor, it may be picked up and eaten within five seconds. The reasoning behind this is that dirt and germs take six seconds to transfer from one surface to another.

"Oops, dropped my popsicle. Five second rule!"
(Proceeds to pick up dirty-ass rocket pop and suck the lint off of it)

***** Check your vitals *****

To check your email, myspace, facebook, blog, and/or any daily essential websites.

Get off the computer, whore. I need to check my vitals.

Hey, wanna go get something to eat?
Sure, but lemme finish checkin' my vitals first.

***** Free-timer *****

like a part-timer or a full-timer, but one major difference, a free-timer has no job. they have a lot of free time, so they are therefore a free-timer.

kaatisu: so, what do you do during the week?

girl in club: oh, im a free-timer.

***** Break your crayons *****

Make you very upset or sad, or ruin your whole day.

"Dude, don't worry about him, he's just tryin' to break your crayons. Just let it slide."

2007-05-23T03:43:00.000-07:00

i just finished reading Pollyanna which has been a hit cartoon series to my younger sibling. i 'm not interested watching it before because the fact that it is a cartoon i find it boring to watch for. but now that i'm making a point to read more and (good news!!!) i found a website featured free online literature and find this story and other classic novel i want to read but don't have a budget to invest for books.
quotable quotes from the story:

***miss polly says " i did not ask for explanations. i asked for your attention."

***"nancy's conversation to pollyanna " it's plain as the nose on your face."

thoughts that counts:
***'it's funny how dogs and cats know the insides of the folks better than the folks do.'

***'what men and women need is encouragement.
their natural resisting powers should be strengthen not weakened....
instead of always harping on a man's faults, tell him of his virtues.
try to full him out of his rut of bad habits.
hold up to him his better self, his real that can dare and do and win out!
the influence of a beautiful, helpful, hopeful character is contagious, and may revolutionize a whole town...
People radiate what is in their minds and in their hearts.
if a man feels kindly and obliging, his neighbors will feels kindly and obliging,his neighbors will feel that way, too, before long.
But if he scolds and scowls and criticizes-- his neighbors will return scowl for scowls, and add interest!
when you look bad, expecting it, you will get it.
when you know you will find good-you will get that...

lesson of the story:

there's a game introduced by pollyanna to everyone she met in every chance she has and it is called the glad game ---the game is to just find something to be glad about-no matter what it was because when you are hunting for the glad things, you sort of forget the other kind.

2007-05-19T04:04:00.000-07:00

'been a long while since my last entry i've been so hooked up to a comp. game "the sims" where you create your own world --creating the characters and then you choose where they gonna live and how they live but the challenge there is to balance social, work, things you need to do in everyday and skills you need to have in order to get higher position in their work.

aside from that before my sis installed this i've been practicing to type faster using all my fingers which i am doing right now...

haay...i miss blog hopping...

but i can't help myself so guess bye for now... till next time...hehehe

2007-05-05T02:42:00.000-07:00

***meet my "ina-anak" ...born last jan. 3 that makes her only 4 months old...so big huh!!

***of course me and bea...

2007-05-01T04:11:00.000-07:00

here is my research regarding my paranoia:

**breast cancer is normally not painful unless it's malignant...
**the pain felt could be what you call Benign breast lumps and other benign breast changes which are common. Women experience various kinds of breast lumps and other breast changes. These changes include those that normally occur during the menstrual cycle, during pregnancy, and with aging, as well as several types of breast lumps and other changes. Most breast lumps and other changes are benign. Among breast conditions for which biopsies are often done, the results show that some 80 percent are not cancer. But only a doctor can tell for sure whether a condition is malignant (cancer) or benign (not cancer).

wondering why i'm this scared...it is because i haven't proven myself yet as an individually independent...yes, up to now i'm very much dependent to my parents...and i hope that i could be of help to them and they can count on me ...(much sooner i wish)
i also fear death for the same reason and for the things i did not know afterwards...

and i just know that "You" our Almighty can be my strength, hope, inspiration and can make things work. thank you for making us always safe from sickness and harm and i asked you my dear almighty God to continue guide us, help us and always keep us protected... THANK YOU!!!

2007-04-29T03:10:00.000-07:00

a prayer...

I hate what I feel right now… I don’t know if I’m being so paranoid and I just have to ignore it or I should get worry about it but it’s getting into my nerves…I feel there’s something wrong and I’m scared…I feel pain in my chest and lately it’s feels like a needle piercing inside. It really scares me a lot that I even search on the web about the possible cause…I look for the symptoms of breast cancer which I’m hoping and praying that it would not be my case… still confused…oh our Almighty God help me…I hope this will pass and it’s just a paranoia…Lord Jesus Christ please help me…Mother of Perpetual help…Please pray for me…to All the Saints…Please pray for me…help me….

2007-04-22T07:11:00.000-07:00

it's a movie marathon afternoon:

we watched spiderman 1
elektra
& lakehouse - 2nd time....love it...super...

"The Lake House" starts with Kate leaving a note in the mailbox for the new tenant asking him to kindly forward her mail and leaves some details about the home like paw prints by the front door and the box in the attic were there when she moved in.

However, Alex Wyler , the new tenant, disregards it for he look for the details Kate says but it wasn’t there. Until one day a stray dog runs through a paint container leaving a paws print where Kate said to be. To his amusement, he writes back to Kate, only to discover that they are separated in time by two years, with Alex living in 2004 and Kate living in 2006.

Favorite scenes in the movie:

It amazes me how they communicate for it has nothing to do with e-mail, text messages and cell phones; wondering how? It’s through a mailbox outside the lake house they occupy in their respective years. He can slide a note inside in 2004 and put up the flag and she can remove it, in 2006.

A "kilig" moment: They met on her b-day without Kate having any idea about Alex .Started the conversation by Alex asking her about a book- persuasion by jane austen. Afterwards, they dance and kiss.

A touching moment when Alex estranged father has a heart attack and shortly thereafter dies. Kate somehow discovers his death certificate at the time he dies. She rushes to the mailbox and as a gift to Alex, she places a book in the mailbox: a tribute to Alex's father that Kate has obtained, not yet published in Alex's time. He saw a picture wherein he and his dad together in the lake house and only then he knew that his dad were so proud of him. Alex cried so hard.

Heartbreaking moment, it’s Valentines Day 2008 Kate and Morgan arrange to meet at an architectural firm unknowingly owned by Alex's brother. They are renovating an old house. As they exit Kate notices a drawing on the wall of the lake house and inquires as to its artist. When told it is Alex Wyler, she asks as to his whereabouts and is told he died in an accident 2 years ago.

Realization came to Kate and she dashes out of the office and races to the lake house and writes a frantic letter to Alex warning him that HE is the accident victim she told him to her letter who was hit by the bus and she tries to save. She asked him to stay away from the plaza, wait 2 years and go to the lake house. Since Alex is at the lake house finding the original letter Kate wrote about the accident at Daly Plaza, he is there to intercept the desperation letter by Kate. Now he had the original letter knowing where Kate was going to be and the warning letter not to cross the street. He knew on February 14, 2008 Kate would be at the lake house.

The best moment, holding your breath long, is when Kate waiting what will happen after she had put the letter to the mail box. Will the couple finally unite, or will they take their lake lessons about waiting for love and move on, or will there be a third alternative?

Ending:
together at last after 2 years of wait....

What i love about this movie:

**Kate is played by sandra bullock while Alex is by keannu reeves -their second team-up after speed...finally...the movie focused on them and their love story.

**the story is about waiting for your love one until the right time comes. they included in the story the book persuasion written by my fave classic novelist jane austen (which i haven't read yet because i find the first chapter boring but the movie just kindle my interest of reading it)

**the ending is really really awesome...that you will feel every emotion you have...

2007-04-15T09:56:00.001-07:00

my first entry...
wow.... just finish creating this blog...
'been wanting to have this for so long but i just can't bear the fact that i'm going to publish all of thoughts, feelings, rants and even prayers... well, that's what my journal comprised of before but i stopped...
i always keep things to my self because i feel that my thoughts doesn't matter, my feelings aren't important and no one will ever care about my rants and i need an outlet aside from i want to have a record of how i live my life and maybe after sometime i'll go over it to see how i react to other people, to things (living or non-living), to situation, to trials and most importantly to my writings...
so finally here it is...
i also want to see how i improve on anything, how i screwed up and learn from it, how i can be more independent, how things are great and how it gets worse and more importantly how God loves me...